After a long drought, we had sex. It was comfortable and felt familiar. It was a spontaneous thing - unplanned. I'm sure my "blank" stage had something to do with it as my mind is not obsessing or ruminating over things. He was very emotionally intimate and at a certain point I realized that I just didn't want that much intimacy attached to having sex right now. "I don't feel comfortable opening up so much with you", I said. "I'm making a genuine effort to stay connected to you", he responded. "Yes, I know it's my MO to want that but it's way too much for me right now. I'm fine with having sex...I'm just not ready to give deeply of myself.", I let him know. He understood. It did feel good to share what we did. I wasn't looking for earth shattering, only pleasant and nice. More than that would have left me feeling raw and vulnerable....too naked.
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One step at a time.
Cat
And progress was made in the bedroom, although not in the way most imagined. Intimate communication opens attic windows, letting breezes in that sweep the floor of the heart clean so we can see inside our soul.
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